Y\u0131llar! y\u0131l\u0131 ard\u0131 s\u0131ra kovalarken, yolda\u015flara yazmak hala en zor olan\u0131 olarak kalmaktad\u0131r. Amed\u2019in ku\u00e7elerinde ellerinde sal\u00e7al\u0131 ekmek ko\u015fan \u00e7ocukalar\u0131n direni\u015f ve kahramanl\u0131k \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc yazmak ise en zor olan\u0131. \u015eehit Mazlum Egit, bizlere yolda\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevmeyi ve sevilmeyi \u00f6\u011freten, erken zamanda \u015fehitler kervan\u0131na kat\u0131lanlardan 4 y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015f, hala ilk g\u00fcnk\u00fc gibi akl\u0131mda oysa gidi\u015fi. 27.11.2015 bizler i\u00e7in mutlu ve kutsal g\u00fcn 27 Kas\u0131m PKK\u2019nin kurulu\u015f y\u0131l d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc ye\u015fermez dedikleri s\u0131ska fidan\u0131n a\u011fa\u00e7tan ormana d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn ilk g\u00fcnleri. Hep b\u00f6yle anlam dolu bir g\u00fcnde gitmek istemi\u015fti, anlam dolu ya\u015fam\u0131na anlam katmak ad\u0131na. Kahramanca ve fedaice girdi\u011fi eylemde 2 d\u00fc\u015fman polisi \u00f6ld\u00fcrerek sonsuzlu\u011fa u\u011furlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131k onu.<\/p>\n
Gidi\u015fleri kabullenmesi zor olur, anlam vermeyen \u00e7ocuk akl\u0131m\u0131zla senin gidi\u015fini kabullenmesi de hepimiz i\u00e7in zor olmu\u015ftu. Bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc akl\u0131m alm\u0131yordu o zamanlar daha 3-4 g\u00fcn \u00f6nce yan\u0131mda olan, 26\u2019n\u0131n gecesi konu\u015ftu\u011fum yolda\u015f\u0131m nas\u0131l olurda bir daha g\u00f6remeyecektim.<\/p>\n
O g\u00fcn i\u00e7imde bir huzursuzluk, r\u00fcyamda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm \u015eahin\u2019i birde Sur sokaklar\u0131n\u0131, elinizde silahlar g\u00fcl\u00fcyorsunuz, foto\u011fraflar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6steriyor d\u00fc\u015fman bana ben bak\u0131yorum ama bakarken i\u00e7inde ya\u015f\u0131yorum sanki g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn sesi geliyor bana, yorulmu\u015f ama durmam\u0131\u015f y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz g\u00f6zlerimin \u00f6n\u00fcnde. Ne g\u00fczel ve s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 bir r\u00fcyayd\u0131. Sabaha kar\u015f\u0131 kan ter i\u00e7inde uyand\u0131m ve bir daha uyuyamad\u0131m. Me\u011fersem o saatlerde sende kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczler kervan\u0131na.<\/p>\n
Seni ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm g\u00fcnden beri kararl\u0131 ve radikaldin. Hat\u0131rlar m\u0131s\u0131n a\u00e7l\u0131k grevi s\u00fcreciydi hen\u00fcz Lise\u2019deydik eylem yap\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 o zaman tan\u0131m\u0131yordum seni toplasan 5 ki\u015fi yoktunuz oturmu\u015f Lise\u2019nin bah\u00e7esinde eylem yap\u0131yordunuz o zaman anlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bizlere b\u00fcy\u00fck bir ders verece\u011fini.<\/p>\n
Sonras\u0131 zaten romanlara konu olacak bir devrim hikayesi. O kadar inan\u0131yordun ki devrime senin kar\u015f\u0131nda umutsuzlu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fmek imkans\u0131zd\u0131. \u00c7ocuk ya\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fman sald\u0131r\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, girdi\u011fin i\u015fkenceler dahi Devrime inanan y\u00fcre\u011fini so\u011futmam\u0131\u015f daha da harland\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 i\u00e7indeki devrim ate\u015fini.<\/p>\n
Diyorum ya sana bir yazmaya ba\u015flasam ne y\u00fcrek kald\u0131r\u0131r ne de beyin tahamm\u00fcl edebilir. Gidi\u015fin anlat\u0131r belki beni anlatmaya, korktuklar\u0131m\u0131. Gidi\u015finde ya\u015famdaki duru\u015fun gibi egit\u00e7e olmu\u015ftu. De be yolda\u015f de be Egid par\u00e7as\u0131 bu kadar \u00e7abuk mu olacakt\u0131 gitmek. Daha kutsal elbiseleri giymeden umuda doymadan…<\/p>\n
Aniden ald\u0131m haberini i\u00e7imde bir s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bildi\u011fim ama bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc sevemedi\u011fim o \u00f6l\u00fcm so\u011fuklu\u011fu. Bir telefon, iki telefon k\u00f6t\u00fc gelen sesler. Sonra senin c\u00fcmlelerin ve son bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n, son el s\u0131k\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. Birden hepsi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti… Sonras\u0131 so\u011fuk ve karanl\u0131k bir morgun \u00f6n\u00fc, a\u011flayan insanlar, i\u00e7erdekine a\u011f\u0131tlar yak\u0131l\u0131yor senin i\u00e7in ama ben inanmad\u0131m sen oldu\u011funa, seni so\u011fuk ta\u015f\u0131n \u00fczerinde g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde ve sonras\u0131nda inanmad\u0131m hi\u00e7 inanmad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc sen nelerden kurtulmu\u015ftun. Sanki gidece\u011fini biliyormu\u015fcas\u0131na s\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131n son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmemizde elimi. \u0130\u00e7ime do\u011fan karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 savurmak ad\u0131na senin bana dedi\u011fin gibi \u2018Devrim\u2019 \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131 dinliyordum. Umuduna inan\u0131yor kavgana sar\u0131l\u0131yordum.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015fte b\u00f6ylesi bir gece, b\u00f6ylesi kutlu bir g\u00fcnde m\u00fccadelene yak\u0131\u015f\u0131rcas\u0131na kat\u0131ld\u0131n sonsuzluk kervan\u0131na. Arkandan bir ses geliyordu sadece, \u2018G\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcyorlar onu g\u00f6t\u00fcrmesinler!\u2019 Sen gittin mi ger\u00e7ekten diye \u00e7ok d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u015eehitler gider miydi? Sonra fark ettim ki sen \u015fehitlerin silah\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131p yollar\u0131nda intikam \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 atmay\u0131nca giderlermi\u015f. Senin ard\u0131ndan kimler geldi, bir bilsen… Neler oldu bir g\u00f6rsen… Silah\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131yoruz \u015fimdi, kavgam\u0131zda ya\u015fat\u0131yoruz seni yolda\u015f. At\u0131lan her mermi, senin ad\u0131na intikam \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131m\u0131z oluyor. Ak\u0131llar\u0131m\u0131zda senin o muzip g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, o i\u00e7ten bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n ve do\u011fall\u0131\u011f\u0131n. Sen yoksun demek anlams\u0131z art\u0131k sen binlerin, onbinlerin kavgas\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131yorsun. Sen umudunu bize emanet ettin ve sen sonsuzda, K\u00fcrtlerin umudunun ilk do\u011fdu\u011fu, \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe, devrime ad\u0131m att\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o kutsal g\u00fcn 27 Kas\u0131m\u2019da sevdan\u0131 vurdun da\u011flara hasret kald\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u00f6zlemle bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n da\u011flara.<\/p>\n
Sen yolda\u015f,umut g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, ne\u015fe dolu bak\u0131\u015f\u0131n ve t\u00fcm g\u00fczellerin ile kle\u015fimin namlusunda ya\u015fayacaks\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Sur \u015eehidi Mazlum Egid\u2019e…<\/p>\n
Evrim Andok<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Y\u0131llar! y\u0131l\u0131 ard\u0131 s\u0131ra kovalarken, yolda\u015flara yazmak hala en zor olan\u0131 olarak kalmaktad\u0131r. Amed\u2019in ku\u00e7elerinde ellerinde sal\u00e7al\u0131 ekmek ko\u015fan \u00e7ocukalar\u0131n direni\u015f ve kahramanl\u0131k \u00f6yk\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc yazmak ise en zor olan\u0131. \u015eehit Mazlum Egit, bizlere yolda\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevmeyi ve sevilmeyi \u00f6\u011freten, erken zamanda \u015fehitler kervan\u0131na kat\u0131lanlardan 4 y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015f, hala ilk g\u00fcnk\u00fc gibi akl\u0131mda oysa gidi\u015fi. 27.11.2015 bizler […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":34,"featured_media":16310,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[32],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-9688","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9688","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/34"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=9688"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9688\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9690,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9688\/revisions\/9690"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/16310"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=9688"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=9688"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=9688"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}