{"id":8756,"date":"2019-02-14T00:58:20","date_gmt":"2019-02-13T21:58:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/yps-online.com\/tr\/?p=8756"},"modified":"2022-03-18T15:12:30","modified_gmt":"2022-03-18T12:12:30","slug":"cudinin-dag-ceylani","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/2019\/02\/14\/cudinin-dag-ceylani\/","title":{"rendered":"Cud\u00ee\u2019nin da\u011f Ceylan\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><strong>Ax\u00een Amed (Eda Kutay)<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bu gece \u015fehit d\u00fc\u015fenlerden biri Heval Axin Amed-Eda Kutay arkada\u015ft\u0131. Amed Bismil\u2019li, yurtsever bir ailenin \u00e7ocu\u011fuydu. Onu, Temmuz 2015\u2019te tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00f6zsavunma biriminde g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. \u00c7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc bir an\u0131na denk gelmi\u015ftim. Beraber \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma y\u00fcr\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc iki ki\u015fi ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu da onu hem sinirlendirmi\u015f hem de duygusalla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu konu her a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, b\u00fcy\u00fck, ceylan gibi g\u00f6zleriyle mahcup mahcup bak\u0131yordu etraf\u0131na. Kendini sorumlu hissediyordu. <em>\u2018Ben nas\u0131l bunu g\u00f6remedim, fark edemedim\u2019<\/em> diye kendini su\u00e7luyordu.<\/p>\n<p>Esas Cizre\u2019de tan\u0131ma f\u0131rsat\u0131m oldu Ax\u00een\u2019i. Dikkati ve h\u0131rs\u0131yla dikkat \u00e7ekiyordu. G\u00f6zlem g\u00fcc\u00fcne de diyecek yoktu. Cizre\u2019de, bir direni\u015fte bu bir yetenekti. Belli ki mahcup olmas\u0131na sebep olan o ka\u00e7\u0131\u015flar, onu kam\u00e7\u0131lam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 bu konuda. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 fiziki zorlanmaya ra\u011fmen kimseden yard\u0131m istemeyecek kadar da gururluydu. Fiziken zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, da\u011f ortam\u0131na ya da \u015fartlara de\u011fil, yine kendine ve ayaklar\u0131na k\u0131zard\u0131. <em>\u2018Niye \u00e7abuk yoruluyorsun\u2019<\/em> diye azarlard\u0131 kendini.\u00a0 \u0130lgin\u00e7 olan, bir\u00e7ok insan\u0131n kendini kapt\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bar\u0131\u015f s\u00fcrecinde, o kendini sava\u015fa haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O kadar da haz\u0131rd\u0131. Amedli olmas\u0131na ra\u011fmen Cud\u00ee\u2019ye ve Cizre\u2019ye a\u015f\u0131kt\u0131\u2026.. Bu iki yerin gizemi onu cezbetmi\u015fti. \u00d6\u011frenme istemi de g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olunca onunla tart\u0131\u015fmak keyifli oluyordu. Tart\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 kadar okur, okudu\u011fu kadar da tart\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. O y\u00fczden hep geli\u015firdi. Bir de o g\u00fczel sesiyle \u015fark\u0131lar, t\u00fcrk\u00fcler s\u00f6yledi mi insan sadece ona bak\u0131p dinlemek isterdi. Sevdi\u011fi \u015feydi \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek, etraf\u0131ndakileri mest etmek. Gece nobetlerinin de\u011fi\u015fmez \u015fark\u0131c\u0131lardand\u0131. Nobetleri moral gecelerine \u00e7evirmeyi biliyordu. Gen\u00e7lerin de olduk\u00e7a ilgisin \u00e7ekiyordu. Sevdi\u011fi her\u015feyi b\u00f6yle yapard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Cizre\u2019ye geli\u015fimden bir hafta sonrayd\u0131 onun geli\u015fi. Kad\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131na ilk elden o bak\u0131yordu. Gen\u00e7 ve dinamikti. Bazen o duygusal yan\u0131n\u0131 kontrol edemeyince ortamla uyum sorunlar\u0131 da ya\u015f\u0131yordu. Radikal ve ret\u00e7iydi de. Hal b\u00f6yle olunca, o anlarda kimse onunla tart\u0131\u015fmak istemezdi. Ne diyorsa o yap\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Sevilirdi \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Bir defa \u00e7oktan etkilemi\u015f olurdu bulundu\u011fu yeri. Eyl\u00fcl direni\u015finden sonra Nur\u2019da g\u00f6sterilen tutum ve \u0131srarda onun \u00f6nemli pay\u0131 vard\u0131. Sonras\u0131nda Cizre\u2019nin her taraf\u0131nda \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalara ve eylemlere kat\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6zg\u00fcveni bu kadar \u00e7abuk ve m\u00fcthi\u015f geli\u015fen birini bulmak zordu. B\u00fcy\u00fck direni\u015fte Yafes\u2019in komutanlar\u0131ndand\u0131. Oradan geri \u00e7ekilince bu kez Kasaphane\u2019de direni\u015fteydi. En son ikinci hastane etraf\u0131nda g\u00fcvenlik sa\u011flayan tak\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7indeydi. Hi\u00e7 durmadan ve g\u00f6rev se\u00e7meden bunca i\u015fi yapmas\u0131, kesinlikle bilin\u00e7li kat\u0131l\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n sonucuydu. Deyim yerindeyse saflara kat\u0131l\u0131rken sava\u015fa zaten haz\u0131rm\u0131\u015f Ax\u00een. Bu s\u00fcreci o gen\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na ra\u011fmen ba\u015ftan \u00f6ng\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, ona g\u00f6re de s\u00fcrece kat\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu \u015fekilde \u015fahadeti olduk\u00e7a b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131 kayna\u011f\u0131 oldu<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Ax\u00een Amed (Eda Kutay) Bu gece \u015fehit d\u00fc\u015fenlerden biri Heval Axin Amed-Eda Kutay arkada\u015ft\u0131. Amed Bismil\u2019li, yurtsever bir ailenin \u00e7ocu\u011fuydu. Onu, Temmuz 2015\u2019te tan\u0131m\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, \u00f6zsavunma biriminde g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm. \u00c7ok k\u00f6t\u00fc bir an\u0131na denk gelmi\u015ftim. Beraber \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma y\u00fcr\u00fctt\u00fc\u011f\u00fc iki ki\u015fi ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu da onu hem sinirlendirmi\u015f hem de duygusalla\u015ft\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Bu konu her a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, b\u00fcy\u00fck, ceylan gibi g\u00f6zleriyle [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":34,"featured_media":17367,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[32,51],"tags":[246,244,245,235],"class_list":["post-8756","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar","category-yps-jin","tag-bismil","tag-eda","tag-kutay","tag-sehit"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8756","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/34"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8756"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8756\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17368,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8756\/revisions\/17368"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/17367"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8756"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8756"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/yps-online.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8756"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}