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\u201cB\u00fct\u00fcn bah\u00e7eler sende toplanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcl m\u00fcs\u00fcn nesin?\u2019\u2019<\/p>\n
Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n Dallar\u0131 sarkan bir a\u011fac\u0131n ye\u015filli\u011fiyledir \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kirazlar, mayho\u015f elmalar, olgun armutlar gibi oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. \u00c7er\u00e7ilerden el al\u0131p diyar diyar dola\u015f\u0131rken kalbini k\u00f6ye, y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz derelere, ot toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vadilere, avland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ormanlara b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 mantarlar\u0131, iki sana bir bana diye payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Saz \u00e7almasa da sular\u0131n sesini han\u00e7eresinde ehlile\u015ftirip a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir.<\/p>\n Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n Zaman\u0131n karanl\u0131k y\u00fcz\u00fcnden bize do\u011fru, bizden yana en gen\u00e7 bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tak\u0131narak umutlar vermi\u015ftir de ondan… O, \u0131\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r. Bazo\u2019nun heybetini akl\u0131na yedirmi\u015f, bir dal reyhanla nazik, safl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u015eehid\u00ea Giro\u2019dan alm\u0131\u015f alm\u0131\u015f da hep kanayarak ya\u015fam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r diye g\u00fczeldir. Yal\u0131nayak y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcp g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ku\u015flara \u00f6zenerek \u201chilllll\u201d heram!\u2019\u2019 diye ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Bir r\u00fcyay\u0131 aralayarak gelip d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm atmay\u0131 ve t\u0131rpan d\u00f6vmeyi \u00f6\u011fretti\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir.<\/p>\n Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kederden ve gelecekten yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc kayadan ve sudan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. O\u011flaklara ta\u015f atmay\u0131 ve top oynamay\u0131 ve haks\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa kar\u015f\u0131 durman\u0131n gereklili\u011fini dermi\u015ftir diye g\u00fczeldir. Halil day\u0131n\u0131n \u201cH\u00eeva sor digot h\u00eeva sor digot zelx\u00ea xwe dida r\u00fbmal\u00ea\u2019\u2019 stran\u0131n\u0131 sevdi\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Ali dedenin avlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 onca ay\u0131n\u0131n da\u011flarda dola\u015fan ruhu oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. O, hayattan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Seslerden, solgun g\u00fcnler ve g\u00fcllerden, gecenin inat\u00e7\u0131 s\u00f6zlerinden, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fc\u011fe a\u015fkedilmi\u015f sert bir \u015famardan, a\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n bak\u0131\u015fmas\u0131ndan, do\u011frunun engin bilgisinden, g\u00fczel g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015flerin h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc sezgisinden ve k\u0131rg\u0131nl\u0131klardan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r diye g\u00fczeldir. \u00d6l\u00fcmden korunman\u0131n yolu, duru ve g\u00fczel \u00f6lmekmi\u015f!<\/strong><\/p>\n Lamban\u0131n \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda k\u0131\u015f\u0131 k\u0131\u015f yapan uzun gecelerde, \u0131slanmak da de\u011fil ya\u011fmurlarla doldu\u011fumuz baharlarda r\u00fczgarlarla b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm ben. Hasan dedemin inad\u0131yla, Gul\u00ea ninemin sevin\u00e7li umursamazl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla, annem Zeliha\u2019n\u0131n safl\u0131\u011f\u0131, babam Halil\u2019in inanc\u0131yla iyi b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcm. Ay haylazl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131yor. Ve ben opak karlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum, kaymay\u0131 ve kanatlan\u0131p sevmeyi… \u0130\u015faret parma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n deldi\u011fi \u00e7uvallarda kuru \u00fcz\u00fcmler, kaklar\u0131, kirleterek kaza\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6mle\u011fimi ah\u0131rlar\u0131n en kuytu yerlerinde sakland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, folluktan \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yumurtalara ninemin buldu\u011fu sebepleri k\u0131rk\u0131ndan sonra \u015f\u00f6yle g\u00fclerek bir deftere ilk kez sahip oldu\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcn heyecan\u0131yla \u015f\u00f6yle g\u00fcne\u015flenerek d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Vard\u0131r ba\u015fka \u015feyler: Su h\u0131rpalanm\u0131\u015f ellerimle, r\u00fczgar\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00e7en diliyle, t\u00fcm su\u00e7lar gibi bende kals\u0131n!<\/p>\n Tarihe not d\u00fc\u015fmek i\u00e7in s\u00f6yl\u00fcyorum: \u201cW\u00ea lalo kartol!\u2019\u2019 diyen bendim. Cemlerde g\u00fclen ve a\u011flayan, kuzulara ad veren, k\u00f6pe\u011fimiz Toni\u2019yi seven, at\u0131m\u0131z \u015e\u00eano\u2019ya binen, u\u00e7urumlara a\u00e7\u0131lan bendim.<\/p>\n Yaralar\u0131 sarmaya geldim. Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n Suya muhta\u00e7 a\u011fac\u0131n yer\u00e7ekimine cevap veren direngen yapra\u011f\u0131na heves etti\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Kal\u0131n \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir ipin ucundaki gerilim oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Kavmin umuduyla ezberlere elleri \u00e7amurlardan \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015f \u00e7ocuklar b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. G\u00f6lde en \u00e7ok kim ta\u015f sektirebilir diye \u00fcnlenen, g\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e h\u0131rpan\u00ee, ko\u015ftuk\u00e7a sava\u015fkan, cebindeki bileyik \u00e7ak\u0131s\u0131 gibi kavgaya haz\u0131r bir inan\u00e7la \u201cHey burday\u0131m ben, hep ya\u015fama \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m, ad\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131n ritmiyle sonsuz c\u00fcmleler kurarak\u2019\u2019 diyen, dedik\u00e7e bir fikir gibi \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131p \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131p da\u011f\u0131lan esrar oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir.<\/p>\n Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n Birbirimize sordu\u011fumuz sorulardan y\u00fckselen hengame oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Kalabal\u0131\u011f\u0131n kusursuz avu\u00e7lar\u0131na dokunan ince bir g\u00fcl oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n ufkunda ku\u015flara bakarken omuza konan bir h\u0131rkan\u0131n s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ylad\u0131r diye g\u00fczeldir. Kamber dedenin yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 muskalara inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir: Kesin umutvar, dudak u\u00e7uklatan… Ne olur beni r\u00fczgarlarla s\u0131namay\u0131n! \u00c7atlayan nar, bu\u011fday tarlas\u0131, uzun \u00f6mr\u00fcn kelebe\u011fi, ne olur beni ya\u011fmurlarla s\u0131namay\u0131n diyebildi\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir.<\/p>\n Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir?<\/strong><\/p>\n Yeni sa\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131zda b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0131l\u0131k tat oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Derin vadilerin, g\u00fcr ormanlar\u0131n, korku ve heyecan aras\u0131nda yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hislere dudak b\u00fck\u00fcp kendi y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015faret etti\u011fi i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. G\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6zeti, g\u00f6lgenin incinen feryad\u0131 oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Avlular\u0131n serinli\u011finde Pep\u00fbk\u2019un kederine a\u011flayan, g\u00fcne\u015f da\u011f\u0131l\u0131nca ate\u015fe y\u00fcr\u00fcyen, karadut, kumlu nehir, sev sev bitmeyen ku\u015flar oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Ninesinin dualar\u0131ndan sa\u00e7\u0131lan \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 kocaman bir bah\u00e7e yap\u0131p bize mutlulukla sundu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum anne, seni \u00e7ok seviyorum baba.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum Nahide, da\u011f g\u00f6llerinde \u0131\u015f\u0131k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcren g\u00f6zlerinle.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum Naime, uykumu b\u00f6len dallar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131t\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131yla.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum Saime, so\u011fuk gecelerde ellerime hohlayan s\u0131cak nefesinle.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum \u00dcmit, k\u00f6pe\u011fi, at\u0131 sevdirip, suyun y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc de\u011fi\u015ftirmeyi \u00f6\u011fretmenle.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum Xec\u00ea, \u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma bak\u0131p da\u011flara t\u0131rmanmama g\u00fc\u00e7 vermenle, \u201cpoz kilik\u2019\u2019 dedi\u011fimizde k\u0131zmamanla.<\/p>\n Seni \u00e7ok seviyorum Remo, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc seviyorum k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm…<\/p>\n Zamani \u00c7amak (Xebatkar Karker) an\u0131s\u0131na…<\/p>\n Haziran 2016<\/p>\n *K\u0131r\u0131klar 1 No\u2019lu F Tipi Cezaevi<\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cB\u00fct\u00fcn bah\u00e7eler sende toplanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fcl m\u00fcs\u00fcn nesin?\u2019\u2019 Zamani niye g\u00fczeldir? Dallar\u0131 sarkan bir a\u011fac\u0131n ye\u015filli\u011fiyledir \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kirazlar, mayho\u015f elmalar, olgun armutlar gibi oldu\u011fu i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. \u00c7er\u00e7ilerden el al\u0131p diyar diyar dola\u015f\u0131rken kalbini k\u00f6ye, y\u00fczd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcz derelere, ot toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vadilere, avland\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ormanlara b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. Toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 mantarlar\u0131, iki sana bir bana diye payla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in g\u00fczeldir. 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\nAsi bir f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131 dola\u015f\u0131yor sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda, esirgeyen ve ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayan annemin parmaklar\u0131yla: Zamanla tozland\u0131 sorular, cevaplar hep ayn\u0131 ayd\u0131nl\u0131kla tazelendi akl\u0131mda. Bir: Kocaman da\u011flar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131m inat\u00e7\u0131 ayaklar\u0131m\u0131n bitmeyen g\u00fcc\u00fcyle. \u0130ki: G\u00f6k burdaym\u0131\u015f, ben g\u00fcld\u00fck\u00e7e masmavi! \u00dc\u00e7: sakal\u0131m bir kuma\u015fa do\u011fru teyelleniyor… Sonra masallardan ge\u00e7tim, sonra seyrek ormanlardan, kar\u0131n ve so\u011fu\u011fun, a\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131n, susuzlu\u011fun telaffuzuyla hep gen\u00e7… Hep gen\u00e7 ve ba\u011f\u0131ra ba\u011f\u0131ra.<\/p>\n
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\nToprak ge\u00e7iyor burdan, da\u011f susuyor. Ve y\u00fcz\u00fcyorum ben hep ayn\u0131 duru sularda. En g\u00fczel \u00e7i\u00e7eklerle anneme baharlar yak\u0131\u015f\u0131yor. Ya\u011fmurlar\u0131n sesiyle ormanlar\u0131n k\u00fcsk\u00fcn yata\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6ten ku\u015flar, korkar\u0131m bensiz \u00f6teceksiniz. Korkar\u0131m suskunluklardan yap\u0131lm\u0131\u015f annem \u015f\u00f6yle sar\u0131l\u0131p \u015f\u00f6yle ok\u015fay\u0131p \u015f\u00f6yle koklay\u0131p beni… daha ne varsa i\u015fte g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131na y\u00fckleyip y\u00fckleyip ya\u015fayacak.<\/p>\n